Dawn's Digression.
Monday, November 10, 2003
This weekend was definitely better than last weekend. Not that it would take a lot, but it was better, and I'm happy about that.
I got a hair cut on Friday, and I'm traumatized. I've had probably 2 inches cut off in the last 2 months, and I feel like my hair is the same length it was last year at this time. I want to grow it out! *sniffle* I want long pretty hair to the middle of my back. At this rate it'll take me 10 years, and by then my whole head will be gray!
On Saturday Michele and I went to Target to pick up some things. We originally left the house to return some stuff and purchase a grill and a ladder. We came home with neither. We got a Wet Jet! Finally! And a new iron, a new skillet, a couch cover for the scratching post couch, pillows for that couch, a filing cabinet.....Just a whole bunch of stuff. It was so fun. I am very excited about the file cabinet, though. That has been bugging the crap out of me for weeks, now. Michele said that me getting the file cabinet was like giving the dog a chip because I will be completely absorbed in that activity and won't pay attention to anything else while I'm organizing it. I think it was supposed to be a slam, but it didn't bother me because it is SO true!
Both Friday and Saturday nights we pulled the mattress off of our guest bed and threw it in the floor in front of the fireplace so we could sleep there. I tell you what, that fireplace emits some serious heat. I had to turn it way down, and I still ended up kicking off the sheet and taking off my sweats. I almost always sleep in sweats or pajama bottoms. I can't stand to have my legs touching one another while I'm sleeping. It makes Michele crazy. I'm just more comfortable that way. One thing I can't stand to wear in bed is socks. If I go to bed with them on, I always end up taking them off in the middle of the night.
I bought S@rah McL@chl@n's new CD this weekend. I didn't even know it was out until a few days ago. I've been listening to it all morning. Listening might be too strong of a word. I've had it playing all morning. So far, it seems pretty groovy. I don't know if it will measure up to Surfacing or Fumbling, but I have hopes that it will at least be good.
Sarah had her custom concert on Oxygen, and Rachel doesn't have cable, so I invited her over to watch TV with us last night. I went to On The Border and picked up some fajitas for the 3 of us. Yummy! Since Michele doesn't care for Mexican food (!), I will be eating fajitas for the rest of the week. Not that I have a problem with that. I'm just saying. I have a huge bag full of chips in the pantry.
Mich has been putting forth a real effort to get to know my friends, and I am right proud of her. Melody and Kim came over on Halloween. Rachel came over last night. Michelle and Eric are coming next Saturday, and LeeAnn and Nicole are supposed to be coming sometime soon. Not only has Mich not complained about all this friend activity on my part, she is encouraging it. She really surprised me this weekend by saying that she would like to get to know Rachel. Isn't that wonderful? It is!
My back, neck, and shoulders have been extremely tense the past few days. I'm not sure exactly what the problem is, but it is very painful. I'd give anything (you know, except money) for a massage right now. I am extremely uncomfortable. My hands hurt, too. I've been applying lotion like crazy so I can rub my hands.
This weekend we switched the exercise and guest rooms and put my computer in the new guest room. Yay! I don't have the PC all hooked up yet, but that only takes a few minutes. I really hope I like the computer in there since we went through all that trouble. We had a hell of a time getting the treadmill into the smaller bedroom. Of course, now the Chi in the guest room is completely off. I'm having a hard time figuring out how I will fix it in there. I also can't seem to find room for my favorite bookcase. It just can't really be my space without my bookcase. Ya know? It's just not right! The thing I hate about that bedroom is that there is zero wall space. It is so frustrating.
I have my second appointment with the therapist tonight. I am really afraid I won't really open up to him. I can type all day about my feelings and why I act the way I do, but I just can't do it in front of people. I can't face people when I talk to them. I wonder why that is. I already said something to him that wasn't quite true, and I can't figure out why I did it, or what I meant. I need to rectify the statement, but I have no idea why I misspoke in the first place. I think I was grazing over what might very well be an issue.
I got a hair cut on Friday, and I'm traumatized. I've had probably 2 inches cut off in the last 2 months, and I feel like my hair is the same length it was last year at this time. I want to grow it out! *sniffle* I want long pretty hair to the middle of my back. At this rate it'll take me 10 years, and by then my whole head will be gray!
On Saturday Michele and I went to Target to pick up some things. We originally left the house to return some stuff and purchase a grill and a ladder. We came home with neither. We got a Wet Jet! Finally! And a new iron, a new skillet, a couch cover for the scratching post couch, pillows for that couch, a filing cabinet.....Just a whole bunch of stuff. It was so fun. I am very excited about the file cabinet, though. That has been bugging the crap out of me for weeks, now. Michele said that me getting the file cabinet was like giving the dog a chip because I will be completely absorbed in that activity and won't pay attention to anything else while I'm organizing it. I think it was supposed to be a slam, but it didn't bother me because it is SO true!
Both Friday and Saturday nights we pulled the mattress off of our guest bed and threw it in the floor in front of the fireplace so we could sleep there. I tell you what, that fireplace emits some serious heat. I had to turn it way down, and I still ended up kicking off the sheet and taking off my sweats. I almost always sleep in sweats or pajama bottoms. I can't stand to have my legs touching one another while I'm sleeping. It makes Michele crazy. I'm just more comfortable that way. One thing I can't stand to wear in bed is socks. If I go to bed with them on, I always end up taking them off in the middle of the night.
I bought S@rah McL@chl@n's new CD this weekend. I didn't even know it was out until a few days ago. I've been listening to it all morning. Listening might be too strong of a word. I've had it playing all morning. So far, it seems pretty groovy. I don't know if it will measure up to Surfacing or Fumbling, but I have hopes that it will at least be good.
Sarah had her custom concert on Oxygen, and Rachel doesn't have cable, so I invited her over to watch TV with us last night. I went to On The Border and picked up some fajitas for the 3 of us. Yummy! Since Michele doesn't care for Mexican food (!), I will be eating fajitas for the rest of the week. Not that I have a problem with that. I'm just saying. I have a huge bag full of chips in the pantry.
Mich has been putting forth a real effort to get to know my friends, and I am right proud of her. Melody and Kim came over on Halloween. Rachel came over last night. Michelle and Eric are coming next Saturday, and LeeAnn and Nicole are supposed to be coming sometime soon. Not only has Mich not complained about all this friend activity on my part, she is encouraging it. She really surprised me this weekend by saying that she would like to get to know Rachel. Isn't that wonderful? It is!
My back, neck, and shoulders have been extremely tense the past few days. I'm not sure exactly what the problem is, but it is very painful. I'd give anything (you know, except money) for a massage right now. I am extremely uncomfortable. My hands hurt, too. I've been applying lotion like crazy so I can rub my hands.
This weekend we switched the exercise and guest rooms and put my computer in the new guest room. Yay! I don't have the PC all hooked up yet, but that only takes a few minutes. I really hope I like the computer in there since we went through all that trouble. We had a hell of a time getting the treadmill into the smaller bedroom. Of course, now the Chi in the guest room is completely off. I'm having a hard time figuring out how I will fix it in there. I also can't seem to find room for my favorite bookcase. It just can't really be my space without my bookcase. Ya know? It's just not right! The thing I hate about that bedroom is that there is zero wall space. It is so frustrating.
I have my second appointment with the therapist tonight. I am really afraid I won't really open up to him. I can type all day about my feelings and why I act the way I do, but I just can't do it in front of people. I can't face people when I talk to them. I wonder why that is. I already said something to him that wasn't quite true, and I can't figure out why I did it, or what I meant. I need to rectify the statement, but I have no idea why I misspoke in the first place. I think I was grazing over what might very well be an issue.
Dawn, 1:54 PM
