Dawn's Digression.
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
I'm glad to say that yesterday got much better. I was so aggressive and angry yesterday, that every time I talked to someone I was agitated. I even got pissed at Jennifer. I am never angry at her, and I spend more time with her than I do anyone else, save Michele. We went out to lunch, I vented about my weekend, and then I felt better. What complete craziness. Whew.
A really good friend of mine is going through a harrowing breakup. She called me on Saturday in tears and wanted advice. Advice? From me? You've got to be kidding! I did my best, though, and I hope that I helped at least a tiny bit. This friend has always been there for me, so I am making it my mission to answer the phone each time she calls and to make myself available to her at all times. It's so sad.
Yet another good friend of mine is going through some really nasty times in her relationship as well. What in the world is up with that? I'm glad that at least she and her partner are trying to work through the hard times instead of just throwing out something they've spent so much time on. I think it is disrespectful of a relationship to end it without at least trying first. Especially if you have spent years together. After all you've invested, how can you not put forth some effort?
I had a strange dream last night. I can't remember exactly what happened (as usual). I just remember that it was our anniversary (Michele and I), and the people we invited to celebrate with us were a bunch of flakes and didn't show up. And the ones that did show up weren't really interested in being there with us. Hmmm. I think I see a direct relationship. Maybe I'm angrier than I thought. But I have no reason to be. It's silly, really. Let's just say I learned who my friends are. (I'm not talking to you, Chulie!) Even though that statement sounds angry, and I do seem to have anger (ie dream), I feel like I'm able to shrug it off. Hey, you know what? Less stamps for Christmas cards. And that's okay. I've always said I'm not one for quantity friends, and I'm not.
Speaking of quality vs quantity.....or maybe I wasn't.....
Sunday was Granny's birthday, so the family decided to have a potluck. My gosh, what a bunch of people. I didn't count, but I can tell you there were well over 20 of us. Thank goodness my cousin Michelle was there. Michele and I spent most of our time talking to her. Michelle is just awesome, and I would love it if Michele could really get to know her. This is why I am so excited that Michelle and Eric are tentatively scheduled to come over next Friday and watch television with us. Last Friday Kim and Melody came over, and then next week, Michelle and Eric. How exciting that Michele is finally getting to know the people that are important to me.
We had a really nice time Friday night. 'We' being Michele and I. Melody and Kim came over and brought The Exorcist. We ate some finger foods, poked fun of Michele for being a terrible chip pour-er, and made various sarcastic remarks at the television. I have truly missed having people to chill with. The kind of folks you can just sit and watch tv with and have it be no big deal. It is so relaxing. I don't feel like I need to be 'on' during those times. I feel like I can just sit there until I actually have something to say. I love it.
A really good friend of mine is going through a harrowing breakup. She called me on Saturday in tears and wanted advice. Advice? From me? You've got to be kidding! I did my best, though, and I hope that I helped at least a tiny bit. This friend has always been there for me, so I am making it my mission to answer the phone each time she calls and to make myself available to her at all times. It's so sad.
Yet another good friend of mine is going through some really nasty times in her relationship as well. What in the world is up with that? I'm glad that at least she and her partner are trying to work through the hard times instead of just throwing out something they've spent so much time on. I think it is disrespectful of a relationship to end it without at least trying first. Especially if you have spent years together. After all you've invested, how can you not put forth some effort?
I had a strange dream last night. I can't remember exactly what happened (as usual). I just remember that it was our anniversary (Michele and I), and the people we invited to celebrate with us were a bunch of flakes and didn't show up. And the ones that did show up weren't really interested in being there with us. Hmmm. I think I see a direct relationship. Maybe I'm angrier than I thought. But I have no reason to be. It's silly, really. Let's just say I learned who my friends are. (I'm not talking to you, Chulie!) Even though that statement sounds angry, and I do seem to have anger (ie dream), I feel like I'm able to shrug it off. Hey, you know what? Less stamps for Christmas cards. And that's okay. I've always said I'm not one for quantity friends, and I'm not.
Speaking of quality vs quantity.....or maybe I wasn't.....
Sunday was Granny's birthday, so the family decided to have a potluck. My gosh, what a bunch of people. I didn't count, but I can tell you there were well over 20 of us. Thank goodness my cousin Michelle was there. Michele and I spent most of our time talking to her. Michelle is just awesome, and I would love it if Michele could really get to know her. This is why I am so excited that Michelle and Eric are tentatively scheduled to come over next Friday and watch television with us. Last Friday Kim and Melody came over, and then next week, Michelle and Eric. How exciting that Michele is finally getting to know the people that are important to me.
We had a really nice time Friday night. 'We' being Michele and I. Melody and Kim came over and brought The Exorcist. We ate some finger foods, poked fun of Michele for being a terrible chip pour-er, and made various sarcastic remarks at the television. I have truly missed having people to chill with. The kind of folks you can just sit and watch tv with and have it be no big deal. It is so relaxing. I don't feel like I need to be 'on' during those times. I feel like I can just sit there until I actually have something to say. I love it.
Dawn, 9:31 AM
