Dawn's Digression.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
I Feel Like Crap
I feel like crap.
Ugh. Last week was a hell of a week. Work sucked. Sooo busy. School sucked. A funeral. One of Tracy's dogs passed away. I can't stand the thought of facing this week. The good news is that I have zero plans this week, leave the two days of school. Plus, there are only 4 weeks of school left.
Although I feel like a complete loser for it, I've decided to take the summer off from school. Not taking this class over the summer jacks with me big 'life plan', but. I just need want a break. I have zero motivation and as a result, my results are pathetic. I'm going to try not to beat myself up about it too much, but I'm pretty certain I'll feel guilty about it for a long time.
I took a nap tonight and woke up to find my clothes and pillow drenched in sweat. It certainly wasn't hot in the apartment because I had the AC set to a very low temperature. My best guess is another of those anxiety attacks, although I'm not real sure what my anxiety is about.
Oh! Let me take a minute to brag on my woman. I'm so proud! She participated in a bowling tournament last weekend and placed third. She got herself a trophy and everything. It isn't even a hideous trophy. :)
I'm doing crappy on the Debbie Ford. Not taking a summer course will help with this. I don't feel like I am centered right now, and this isn't okay. In my mind, it is not possible to really achieve goals without having focus and stillness. If that makes any sense.
I started a book I really like thus far, Skin Game. Of course, I'm only on Chapter 3, so we'll see how that goes. There was something in the second chapter that I identified with, so I'm hooked. Matter of fact, I think I shall go to my room and read now.
Ugh. Last week was a hell of a week. Work sucked. Sooo busy. School sucked. A funeral. One of Tracy's dogs passed away. I can't stand the thought of facing this week. The good news is that I have zero plans this week, leave the two days of school. Plus, there are only 4 weeks of school left.
Although I feel like a complete loser for it, I've decided to take the summer off from school. Not taking this class over the summer jacks with me big 'life plan', but
I took a nap tonight and woke up to find my clothes and pillow drenched in sweat. It certainly wasn't hot in the apartment because I had the AC set to a very low temperature. My best guess is another of those anxiety attacks, although I'm not real sure what my anxiety is about.
Oh! Let me take a minute to brag on my woman. I'm so proud! She participated in a bowling tournament last weekend and placed third. She got herself a trophy and everything. It isn't even a hideous trophy. :)
I'm doing crappy on the Debbie Ford. Not taking a summer course will help with this. I don't feel like I am centered right now, and this isn't okay. In my mind, it is not possible to really achieve goals without having focus and stillness. If that makes any sense.
I started a book I really like thus far, Skin Game. Of course, I'm only on Chapter 3, so we'll see how that goes. There was something in the second chapter that I identified with, so I'm hooked. Matter of fact, I think I shall go to my room and read now.
Dawn, 8:51 PM
