Dawn's Digression.
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
Argh. I can't sleep tonight.
Okay, I probably could, but I don't want to. I was crying and TC fell asleep. I guess I shouldn't expect much more, should I? NO. But I do. For once, I'd like her to not only ask what is wrong, but to understand and empathize. Not that she doesn't ever. Just that I want her to this time. That's all. Please excuse any typing errors tonight. I know they are bad. I've had 6 beers, and right now, I'm a little loopy. I'm trying to go back and correct errors, but as any drinker knows, you can't catch them all!
Really. I'm mostly drunk. So what you get here is a bunch of typos and a bunch of crap. If you don't like it, don't read it. I'm taking the tough love approach.
Now that I've said all that, I'm not sure I feel like writing. Go figure.
Since I've gotten back from vacation, I've missed Ruby more than ever. I miss having someone to talk to that gets me. I know I have Rachel, but there are too many implications I can't handle. With Ruby, everything is face value. I can tell her anything, and nothing surprises or upsets her. I miss having a friend like that here. And. I wish Ruby and I have done or would do like we mentioned years ago and plan a 'us only' weekend somewhere. I am craving conversation so badly I can't even tell you. I want to discuss at length what a specific song means and how it applies to me. I want to discuss....anything. Just something.
Okay, I probably could, but I don't want to. I was crying and TC fell asleep. I guess I shouldn't expect much more, should I? NO. But I do. For once, I'd like her to not only ask what is wrong, but to understand and empathize. Not that she doesn't ever. Just that I want her to this time. That's all. Please excuse any typing errors tonight. I know they are bad. I've had 6 beers, and right now, I'm a little loopy. I'm trying to go back and correct errors, but as any drinker knows, you can't catch them all!
Really. I'm mostly drunk. So what you get here is a bunch of typos and a bunch of crap. If you don't like it, don't read it. I'm taking the tough love approach.
Now that I've said all that, I'm not sure I feel like writing. Go figure.
Since I've gotten back from vacation, I've missed Ruby more than ever. I miss having someone to talk to that gets me. I know I have Rachel, but there are too many implications I can't handle. With Ruby, everything is face value. I can tell her anything, and nothing surprises or upsets her. I miss having a friend like that here. And. I wish Ruby and I have done or would do like we mentioned years ago and plan a 'us only' weekend somewhere. I am craving conversation so badly I can't even tell you. I want to discuss at length what a specific song means and how it applies to me. I want to discuss....anything. Just something.
Dawn, 10:19 PM
