Dawn's Digression.
Wednesday, February 27, 2002
Well, I passed the third module. But. I haven't taken the test yet. I haven't had time. Work has actually been really busy today. Which is a good thing, keeps me occupied.
I've decided I'm going to clean tonight. Like it or not, I will. I will unpack that duffel bag. I will balance the checkbook. Do the dishes. Oh. I need to practice my trumpet. I'm alarmed I don't want to. I'm worried I'm flaking out. And I musn't. I have wanted this for years. So what is it that is making me not wanna do it? Fear, probably. And the fact that I suck, and sucking makes me sad. But I can hardly expect to pick up an instrument and be wonderful, can I? Of course not!
I got some of those wonderful paper boxes from the copy room. Maybe I'll take a couple home and pack up some stuff. Organize some things. I'm not sure I have a lot of stuff to organize, but maybe I could find something to cram in a box. I like putting things in boxes. Actually, I've been thinking, I could do without that bookcase by my bed. It's really just a crap magnet. And it's not an especially good-looking bookcase. Hmmmm. And I have a bookcase in the living area that could probably be done away with. Maybe I should just condense the two of them. Anyway~ I'm just trying to get motivated to do something worthwhile. Maybe I could sew TK's eyepillow I promised her at Christmas. OH! I could make some soap. I need to use up the rest of my soap ingredients and then I could throw out my backlog of herbs....they can't possibly still be good after two years! Yeah, but if I clean all that stuff out, I won't have any 'stuff' anymore. No stuff? I'm a big fun of not having clutter. I can't stand things just laying around. On my coffee table I have 4 coasters, a candle holder, and a little glass box. That's it. I have a coffee table with drawers. That way there is no need to lay anything on top of it. I wouldn't leave the coasters out, even, if I didn't like them so much. Gf got them for me for Christmas, and she did a good job picking them out. I bet she thinks they are ugly. :) We have completely different styles. Big shock, no? hehe At least she isn't into the 'brass n glass' decor. Oh my. Do you remember that? Is that still in? It shouldn't be. Oh. And muave. I was a victim of mauve for years. I remember I was pissed because in my first apartment I couldn't get grey carpet. I had no idea how I would live with my beige carpet when I wanted the decor to be mauve and light blue. *cringe*
I've decided I'm going to clean tonight. Like it or not, I will. I will unpack that duffel bag. I will balance the checkbook. Do the dishes. Oh. I need to practice my trumpet. I'm alarmed I don't want to. I'm worried I'm flaking out. And I musn't. I have wanted this for years. So what is it that is making me not wanna do it? Fear, probably. And the fact that I suck, and sucking makes me sad. But I can hardly expect to pick up an instrument and be wonderful, can I? Of course not!
I got some of those wonderful paper boxes from the copy room. Maybe I'll take a couple home and pack up some stuff. Organize some things. I'm not sure I have a lot of stuff to organize, but maybe I could find something to cram in a box. I like putting things in boxes. Actually, I've been thinking, I could do without that bookcase by my bed. It's really just a crap magnet. And it's not an especially good-looking bookcase. Hmmmm. And I have a bookcase in the living area that could probably be done away with. Maybe I should just condense the two of them. Anyway~ I'm just trying to get motivated to do something worthwhile. Maybe I could sew TK's eyepillow I promised her at Christmas. OH! I could make some soap. I need to use up the rest of my soap ingredients and then I could throw out my backlog of herbs....they can't possibly still be good after two years! Yeah, but if I clean all that stuff out, I won't have any 'stuff' anymore. No stuff? I'm a big fun of not having clutter. I can't stand things just laying around. On my coffee table I have 4 coasters, a candle holder, and a little glass box. That's it. I have a coffee table with drawers. That way there is no need to lay anything on top of it. I wouldn't leave the coasters out, even, if I didn't like them so much. Gf got them for me for Christmas, and she did a good job picking them out. I bet she thinks they are ugly. :) We have completely different styles. Big shock, no? hehe At least she isn't into the 'brass n glass' decor. Oh my. Do you remember that? Is that still in? It shouldn't be. Oh. And muave. I was a victim of mauve for years. I remember I was pissed because in my first apartment I couldn't get grey carpet. I had no idea how I would live with my beige carpet when I wanted the decor to be mauve and light blue. *cringe*
Dawn, 4:15 PM