Dawn's Digression.

Sleep. What is this?

I can't sleep at night these days. Why is this? I want to sleep. I just can't. Well, Friday night after the IG concert (more on that later) I was sooo tired. I went to sleep at around 11:30. But I woke up again at 4:45 in the morning. It's always 4:45. Not 4:46. Not 4:51. Well, okay, sometimes 4:51. But my point is that I'm not sleeping. I don't understand this. It's been going on about a week. That made sense when I was sick. But I'm mostly well now, and I feel as though I should be sleeping.

I've been watching this show on Oxygen, The Sunday Sex Show, or something like that. It has this old lady, she must be around 60 who answers questions from people who call in. I have no idea why I'm addicted, but I am. It comes on Saturday nights at midnight, and I noticed it was on last night when I was once again, not sleeping. I got a bigger kick out of it the first time I saw it. The thing that really cracked me up was that this grandma is on tv talking about sex toys and comparing them. She said it is her job to 'try them out'. Not that I don't think Grannies should be sexual. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying this Grannylady cracks me up.

Okay, so something on my mind-- possibly the source of me being unable to sleep at night.... My lease is up April 25th. This may sound like a long time away, but it isn't. I mean it really isn't. I'm required to give a 30 day notice if I leave, that takes us to March 25. Um. Today is Feb. 25th. Um. That's one month. And I don't know what I want to do. And really, I guess I don't know what my options are.
My stomach kinda hurts today. Not nauseous. (Wish blog had spell check). Not cramps. I dunno. Just discomfort. Of course we all know I'm prone to psycho-somatic sickness. Part of my beauty. hehe
Anyway, back to options...
We have talked a little about the whole living together thing, but I don't understand what she wants. I really don't. Last week she said she wasn't ready, and that is O.K. It is. I decided to let it go and sign another lease. But then she seemed like she kinda softened towards the idea. And now she is wondering if I'd maybe consider living there with her....and I'm not sure I even need to get into the issues I have there. She brought up the whole 'saving money' topic, which is unfortunately a large need of mine. If I ever want to make my position in life better, I'm going to have to compromise some of the things I want. That's just the way life is. But. She is established there. It is her home. I don't know if I could make it mine. Okay. I know I could. Well. Mostly mine. But I'd want some of my stuff around. And she has enough stuff for the both of us. We'd both have to put some things in storage. We'd have 3 cats, a dog, and 3 fish. Our cats do not like each other, and her dog enjoys trying to eat my cats.