Dawn's Digression.
Monday, December 05, 2005
Lilith Fair DVD. That's what.
Man. Lilith Fair was the stuff. I can't remember how many times I went, but man... that was fun. I know I went in Denver. Twice??? Not sure. Atlanta. Met Leah Andreone. She sat on our blanket! hehe Like you've ever heard of her. heh. There was a CD that came out...Can't remember which Lilith Fair, but if you look real hard you can see Rachel and I. Okay, you can see Rachel. Just know I'm one of those people sitting next to her.
You know what's funny? I think Sarah is wearing a cross. She is agnostic. Maybe it's not a cross. But sure shines like one! Hmm. I must say that Fumbling is one of the best make out CDs of all time. You cannot argue with me because I won't listen. :D
You remember how I said R&S helped me rearrange the furniture? Tonya visited on Sunday. The first thing out of her mouth is, "You need to move the couch 'this' way." Heh. Oy.
I keep wanting to hear River. I believe it is a Joni Mitchell that IG sang on 1200 Curfews. Uh oh. I just all lyric heavy. River and Water is Wide.
I'm gonna try to be kind and edit for your reading pleasure. Or skipping pleasure, as the case may be. :D
River
by Joni Mitchell
It's coming on Christmas,
They're cutting down trees.
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace,
Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on.
But it don't snow here,
Stays pretty green.
I'm gonna make a lot of money
And and then I'm gonna quit this crazy scene.
Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on.
...
Hey, I did pretty good on that one! You're welcome.
Next.
Water is Wide. This is an Irish traditional song, so there are lots of variations.
The water is wide; I can't cross o'er,
And neither have I wings to fly.
Give me a boat that can carry two,
And both shall row, my love and I.
A ship there is, she sails the sea,
She's loaded deep, as deep can be.
But not so deep as the love I'm in;
I know not how I sink or swim.
I leaned my back against an oak,
Knowing it was a trusty tree.
At first it bent, but never broke;
Thus did my love prove true to me.
...
Sheryl Crow was just pulling on her ear while she was talking. This means she was lying. I shouldn't tell folks I know these things, should I?
Am I supposed to cover these birds or something? I've never had birds. I think I have to cover them. Hmmm.
Sure are cute.
I was just having a theological discussion with myself. Why are people so afraid to talk about religion? I don't get it. Are we that intimidated by other's beliefs? I'd like to think I'm not. But ... Psychology proves that individuals always believe they are the exception to the rule, so I'm sure everyone thinks that about themselves. I dated someone for a long time that refused to talk to me about religion. Killed me. It wasn't until we started talking kids that she decided we needed to talk about religion. ??? ???? Oy. *rolls eyes* *sigh* How am I threatened by someone else's belief of God?
Amy has nice teeth.
Why does my mind go so much? Why do I have to contemplate God, the Robin Hood plan, creationism and Amy's butt all in one night??
You know what kills me. I'll tell you. ;) someone once said to me, "You wear me out." Really. You think? Let me tell you something. Step into this brain for one night and let's see how you do. It's better with Trileptal. (Dr. Tomorrow) It's just been nuts the last few weeks and I can see how I could exhaust someone with the torrent of emotions I go through. I would say I have 2 more weeks. I can deal with this.
Ugh. Jewel jacks up Closer To Fine. SHUT UP. And I like Jewel.
I gotta buy a new Thanksmas gift. I left it in Michele's custody. And I'd just as soon leave it there. Like her cell phone that is still on my account. I'd rather pay for it then I have to meet her at the massive telecom store. I know what I need. Is $45 a month worth my sanity? I think so. I have no idea if she is still using the toll tag. I don't care enough to get online and check. Let's say I did. And she was. Then I would see where she was going. We've played that game, and I didn't win. The best break is a clean break. Awful. I just can't believe that I may have an ex I'm not friends with. This is tragic to me. Unconscionable. What can I do? I feel that I'm lucky that not too many folks have given me grief about the VT thing. I've heard a couple of comments, but for the most part, it's been pretty light. It's not like I took my commitment lightly. I didn't. I thought I was doing the right thing. I loved her. The fact is, I will always have a Civil Union in VT. It is my baggage to carry. In this way, I am a lucky devil it will never be legal in TX. I get mad, though. Mostly at myself. Most of what I perceive others are thinking is actually what I'm thinking. Stupid. Get married to someone and after two years call it quits. Very nice. Great stamina. Great choice. What am I supposed to do? Punish myself an entire lifetime? I can't and I won't. Tell ya what. This should be a good tool for weeding out the relationships I don't want. Heh. Okay, that just made me really sad. I must remember that if someone passes me over because of that, it wasn't meant to be. And I am all about what is meant to be. Things have a way of working out. You can call it God, you can call it Fate. But whatever you call it, I believe things happen for a reason and will end how they are meant to. We all have lessons to learn in life. This was a costly one....but not the end of the world.
That could be enough. I'm just talking to myself at this point.
However, I have no desire to continue the rest of this week. None. Xmas parties. Meetings. Ugh. No, thank you. Crapiola. I just got depressed. Goofy. I'm gonna finish watching Sarah and go to bed.
'Night.
Man. Lilith Fair was the stuff. I can't remember how many times I went, but man... that was fun. I know I went in Denver. Twice??? Not sure. Atlanta. Met Leah Andreone. She sat on our blanket! hehe Like you've ever heard of her. heh. There was a CD that came out...Can't remember which Lilith Fair, but if you look real hard you can see Rachel and I. Okay, you can see Rachel. Just know I'm one of those people sitting next to her.
You know what's funny? I think Sarah is wearing a cross. She is agnostic. Maybe it's not a cross. But sure shines like one! Hmm. I must say that Fumbling is one of the best make out CDs of all time. You cannot argue with me because I won't listen. :D
You remember how I said R&S helped me rearrange the furniture? Tonya visited on Sunday. The first thing out of her mouth is, "You need to move the couch 'this' way." Heh. Oy.
I keep wanting to hear River. I believe it is a Joni Mitchell that IG sang on 1200 Curfews. Uh oh. I just all lyric heavy. River and Water is Wide.
I'm gonna try to be kind and edit for your reading pleasure. Or skipping pleasure, as the case may be. :D
River
by Joni Mitchell
It's coming on Christmas,
They're cutting down trees.
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace,
Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on.
But it don't snow here,
Stays pretty green.
I'm gonna make a lot of money
And and then I'm gonna quit this crazy scene.
Oh, I wish I had a river I could skate away on.
...
Hey, I did pretty good on that one! You're welcome.
Next.
Water is Wide. This is an Irish traditional song, so there are lots of variations.
The water is wide; I can't cross o'er,
And neither have I wings to fly.
Give me a boat that can carry two,
And both shall row, my love and I.
A ship there is, she sails the sea,
She's loaded deep, as deep can be.
But not so deep as the love I'm in;
I know not how I sink or swim.
I leaned my back against an oak,
Knowing it was a trusty tree.
At first it bent, but never broke;
Thus did my love prove true to me.
...
Sheryl Crow was just pulling on her ear while she was talking. This means she was lying. I shouldn't tell folks I know these things, should I?
Am I supposed to cover these birds or something? I've never had birds. I think I have to cover them. Hmmm.
Sure are cute.
I was just having a theological discussion with myself. Why are people so afraid to talk about religion? I don't get it. Are we that intimidated by other's beliefs? I'd like to think I'm not. But ... Psychology proves that individuals always believe they are the exception to the rule, so I'm sure everyone thinks that about themselves. I dated someone for a long time that refused to talk to me about religion. Killed me. It wasn't until we started talking kids that she decided we needed to talk about religion. ??? ???? Oy. *rolls eyes* *sigh* How am I threatened by someone else's belief of God?
Amy has nice teeth.
Why does my mind go so much? Why do I have to contemplate God, the Robin Hood plan, creationism and Amy's butt all in one night??
You know what kills me. I'll tell you. ;) someone once said to me, "You wear me out." Really. You think? Let me tell you something. Step into this brain for one night and let's see how you do. It's better with Trileptal. (Dr. Tomorrow) It's just been nuts the last few weeks and I can see how I could exhaust someone with the torrent of emotions I go through. I would say I have 2 more weeks. I can deal with this.
Ugh. Jewel jacks up Closer To Fine. SHUT UP. And I like Jewel.
I gotta buy a new Thanksmas gift. I left it in Michele's custody. And I'd just as soon leave it there. Like her cell phone that is still on my account. I'd rather pay for it then I have to meet her at the massive telecom store. I know what I need. Is $45 a month worth my sanity? I think so. I have no idea if she is still using the toll tag. I don't care enough to get online and check. Let's say I did. And she was. Then I would see where she was going. We've played that game, and I didn't win. The best break is a clean break. Awful. I just can't believe that I may have an ex I'm not friends with. This is tragic to me. Unconscionable. What can I do? I feel that I'm lucky that not too many folks have given me grief about the VT thing. I've heard a couple of comments, but for the most part, it's been pretty light. It's not like I took my commitment lightly. I didn't. I thought I was doing the right thing. I loved her. The fact is, I will always have a Civil Union in VT. It is my baggage to carry. In this way, I am a lucky devil it will never be legal in TX. I get mad, though. Mostly at myself. Most of what I perceive others are thinking is actually what I'm thinking. Stupid. Get married to someone and after two years call it quits. Very nice. Great stamina. Great choice. What am I supposed to do? Punish myself an entire lifetime? I can't and I won't. Tell ya what. This should be a good tool for weeding out the relationships I don't want. Heh. Okay, that just made me really sad. I must remember that if someone passes me over because of that, it wasn't meant to be. And I am all about what is meant to be. Things have a way of working out. You can call it God, you can call it Fate. But whatever you call it, I believe things happen for a reason and will end how they are meant to. We all have lessons to learn in life. This was a costly one....but not the end of the world.
That could be enough. I'm just talking to myself at this point.
However, I have no desire to continue the rest of this week. None. Xmas parties. Meetings. Ugh. No, thank you. Crapiola. I just got depressed. Goofy. I'm gonna finish watching Sarah and go to bed.
'Night.
Dawn, 11:43 PM
