Dawn's Digression.

I'm not sure what I have to say tonight except that I'm not sure what I have to say.

It's been a good day. I had some rice cakes and ramen. Seems like I prob. had something for breakfast. Who knows.

Have I mentioned yet that Canadian Mist fucking stole my baby? Just curious. This makes me mad. I'm way mad. I did it to myself, though, so how mad can I be? Like everything else...I have to fuck it up. Right? Apprently. Dammit.

I was doing the right stuff. I was. I was being the damn wife I was supposed to be. All supportive and shit. Willing to go to counseling. All of that. Willing to see my part of the failure. But GOD. WTF? Canadian Mist fucking stole my marriage and my future family. How is this fair?

I know I've been pretty awful in this life. I know. I truly believe I am paying for it. I just get so angry sometimes. It's not fucking fair. Am I like not worth missing a drink? Am I not?

I must be. Someone will think I am. I am worth more than this. It took me a long time to understand that. I've fought for it. I have the fucking pill box to show for it. SO FUCK YOU, Canadian Mist. FUCK YOU.

I have taken this life back. You will not get the best of me. If nothing else, you have made me stronger, braver and more determined than I EVER was before. I am certain I will be thanking you soon. But for now, I say FUCK YOU CANADIAN MIST.