Dawn's Digression.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Well, That Was Fun
NOT.
God, what a weekend. My eyes still hurt from crying so much. Ugh. UGH.
I was blogging in my head all weekend. Various comments about this whole moving out experience. My emotions are all over the place. It just sucks. Plain old sucks. SUCKS. I'm not too happy tonight. When I left my baby doggy, she was giving me eyes. *sigh* Did I mention "ugh" or "sucks"? Just curious.
I have all my stuff over here now. As far as I know, I don't have any other belongings over there. I cleaned up after myself and all of that. I'm tired. Sad. Empowered. Mad. Sometimes I feel strong for leaving what I know was an unhealthy relationship and environment. But right now, notsomuch. I just feel weak. I'm thankful the weakness waited until I was gone. This was important. Had I 'broken' any earlier, things would have been harder for me. I don't think I've eaten anything except ramen this weekend. No, wait. I did have part of a donut Saturday morning. Oh! And Friday night I had Bueno. Okay, so now I feel better. I've eaten. :)
I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown this morning. Actually, to be fair, I probably did. I thought someone was going to be helping me this weekend, but they were unable to. You see, my parents are moving on Tuesday, so they didn't really have time to help, and I really didn't want them to. But when Mom called and said they were coming, I didn't even bother to fight her. At this point I had been crying for a couple of hours and just wanted help. I abhor asking for help.
Will you bring me La Madeline? I'm hungry. And I don't think I can sleep. I am sad. And tired. Did I already mention this stuff? :)
More pitiful entries tomorrow, I'm sure.
God, what a weekend. My eyes still hurt from crying so much. Ugh. UGH.
I was blogging in my head all weekend. Various comments about this whole moving out experience. My emotions are all over the place. It just sucks. Plain old sucks. SUCKS. I'm not too happy tonight. When I left my baby doggy, she was giving me eyes. *sigh* Did I mention "ugh" or "sucks"? Just curious.
I have all my stuff over here now. As far as I know, I don't have any other belongings over there. I cleaned up after myself and all of that. I'm tired. Sad. Empowered. Mad. Sometimes I feel strong for leaving what I know was an unhealthy relationship and environment. But right now, notsomuch. I just feel weak. I'm thankful the weakness waited until I was gone. This was important. Had I 'broken' any earlier, things would have been harder for me. I don't think I've eaten anything except ramen this weekend. No, wait. I did have part of a donut Saturday morning. Oh! And Friday night I had Bueno. Okay, so now I feel better. I've eaten. :)
I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown this morning. Actually, to be fair, I probably did. I thought someone was going to be helping me this weekend, but they were unable to. You see, my parents are moving on Tuesday, so they didn't really have time to help, and I really didn't want them to. But when Mom called and said they were coming, I didn't even bother to fight her. At this point I had been crying for a couple of hours and just wanted help. I abhor asking for help.
Will you bring me La Madeline? I'm hungry. And I don't think I can sleep. I am sad. And tired. Did I already mention this stuff? :)
More pitiful entries tomorrow, I'm sure.
Dawn, 11:49 PM
