Dawn's Digression.
Saturday, January 25, 2003
I saw The Hours today. OMG. It was great. I loved it. I'm not saying everyone would love it. They wouldn't. But I did. I'm certain I didn't get all the right messages from it I should have, but it touched me anyway, and that is enough for me. There were two parts in particular that made me tear up. But I teared up a lot.
Warning: Potential spoiler - don't read if you haven't seen the movie or plan to! One was when Laura Brown went to the hotel room to kill herself. She began to sob because she couldn't kill herself. As much as she wanted to end it, she just couldn't. There were too many obligations. Another scene that comes to mind is Virginia and Leonard at the train station... Virginia tells Leonard, (paraphrase) "You say you live with it -- everyday you live with the fear of my extinction. I do too." Both of those scenes brought tears.
Spoiler over
I think it was just the desperation and despair each of the women felt that really touched me. To not understand why you should continue to live a life that you don't want... *shakes head*
The muffin didn't seem to like the movie very much. I could see how someone may not like the movie if they can't identify with it. Unless you really know how it feels to be desperate and want to end it....you just may not get it. I know the point of the movie wasn't about suicide or even depression, but that is how I identified with it. I want to see it again.
I had to take in Barney today. She was leaking some water from underneath. I had to replace some valve. She still needs a new thermostat, some hoses, a rotor, and some brake pads. God, I hate putting money in that truck. I wish I could afford a new one. I have just fucked up so badly in the past. And I will be paying for it for a long, long time. The mistakes I made when I was younger will always haunt me, I think. I made a ton of bad decisions. I was doing pretty good for awhile. Then, I just lost it. Michele asked me the other day how someone who is 22 could possibly ever be in the position to declare bankruptcy. I just don't have an answer. Young and stupid is all I can think of, and saying that doesn't help anything. It doesn't make me feel good about myself (obviously), and it doesn't solve the problem.
For the first time in 3 weeks, I'm drinking beer tonight. It's good. I conveniently forgot how yummy beer is. Shame on me, I know. That movie just made me think, and then I needed beer. No more thinking for me. Just beer. ;)
Warning: Potential spoiler - don't read if you haven't seen the movie or plan to! One was when Laura Brown went to the hotel room to kill herself. She began to sob because she couldn't kill herself. As much as she wanted to end it, she just couldn't. There were too many obligations. Another scene that comes to mind is Virginia and Leonard at the train station... Virginia tells Leonard, (paraphrase) "You say you live with it -- everyday you live with the fear of my extinction. I do too." Both of those scenes brought tears.
Spoiler over
I think it was just the desperation and despair each of the women felt that really touched me. To not understand why you should continue to live a life that you don't want... *shakes head*
The muffin didn't seem to like the movie very much. I could see how someone may not like the movie if they can't identify with it. Unless you really know how it feels to be desperate and want to end it....you just may not get it. I know the point of the movie wasn't about suicide or even depression, but that is how I identified with it. I want to see it again.
I had to take in Barney today. She was leaking some water from underneath. I had to replace some valve. She still needs a new thermostat, some hoses, a rotor, and some brake pads. God, I hate putting money in that truck. I wish I could afford a new one. I have just fucked up so badly in the past. And I will be paying for it for a long, long time. The mistakes I made when I was younger will always haunt me, I think. I made a ton of bad decisions. I was doing pretty good for awhile. Then, I just lost it. Michele asked me the other day how someone who is 22 could possibly ever be in the position to declare bankruptcy. I just don't have an answer. Young and stupid is all I can think of, and saying that doesn't help anything. It doesn't make me feel good about myself (obviously), and it doesn't solve the problem.
For the first time in 3 weeks, I'm drinking beer tonight. It's good. I conveniently forgot how yummy beer is. Shame on me, I know. That movie just made me think, and then I needed beer. No more thinking for me. Just beer. ;)
Dawn, 9:45 PM
