Dawn's Digression.

Would you like fries with that??

Hi. It's about 10pm, and I probably shouldn't be worrying about blogging, but I want to. Tonight I went to Happy Hour with Jennifer and Robert. We didn't even leave the restaurant until after 9. The coolest part was that I didn't even realize it was that late.
So, I've been thinking a lot today about this whole cohabitation. I think this makes things different. Why this didn't strike me sooner, I'm unsure. I think this means I have to meet her parents. This makes us 'for real' a couple, if it does, indeed happen. (For blog purposes, we're going to pretend like it is def. going to happen, okay??) Oh my. This brings up a lot of issues that I don't think I knew I had. I was talking to Bob and Jenn at HH tonight, and it occured to me I am completely cynical. I expect nothing to work out. I expect to lose. This is notsogood. The relationship I have now is good. I'm afraid of losing that. Relationships are guarantees of nothing. Exactly nothing. *sigh* I guess I'll try not to bring you guys down. That would be nice, eh? I just don't want to end up as roommates. Or even worse, as less than friends. GF says it would never happen. But I don't believe that. And if you have known me for long, you know that is a change of heart for me. I am no longer romantic, friend. I am cynical. And even sadder, I welcome the cynicism.

I get sad and lonely, and you get your way - Emily Saliers, Hope Alone

So anyway....
*sigh*
I'm thinking about this a lot. The thing is that I love her. But I have such fear. You just can't know. I know she loves me. But I also know that isn't enough to make it work. (didn't I say I was done with this topic?) (I'm listening to Air Supply "I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you..." ) I wish I didn't know that. I really do. It's a hard lesson, and I hope that you haven't learned it. I guess I should learn to look at it as though I was lucky...and in a way I do... but that doesn't make it easier.

Hey, guys....I'm thinking we should do something for Earth Day....I had that thing-a-ma-jig a couple of years ago at Chelle's house (my cousin), but we completely skipped last year. Now, I can't do April 21 (Sunday) due to softball (since when was that more important than Earth Day???) but, maybe April 20th??? What do you think? Wanna do something earthy? Let me know, okay? Because I'd like to.
Well, I'd like to write right now, but since I can't think of anything uplifting I should stop, eh? My blog is such a dang downer! :(
Something is wrong when someone my age is jamming to Styx. Oh yes, this is bad. Not that I think Air Supply was much better. I'm just saying. Not saying. Just saying.
Did they just say "rubi-lator"? Cuz that reminds me of Ruby....no way they said that! Maybe I'm just thinking about ya, Rube! :) *waves* HI!
I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday. Not because I have the biggest plans this weekend (although my plans are pretty cool), but because I get to wear jeans. Okay, so tomorrow isn't jeans Friday...that's next Friday. I'll just say I forgot. Why? Because I am bad and evil....
The weekend plans: (In my head)
Friday: Hopefully seeing the chick
Saturday: Homework. Seeing the chick. Maybe going to Buddies. (prolly not, though)
Sunday: Planting garden & having dinner with my friend Kimber, whom I haven't hung out with in, um, probably 2 years. Unless you count group functions... and I don't.
I wish I could make money blogging. I could be much more interesting for cash. What do you wanna hear? :) Hey, I had a whole thing on the death penalty and toxic waste the other day. It's not my fault Blogger crashed!

New IG CD released on Tuesday!!!

I'd tell you I'm excited, but I'd think you were an idiot if you didn't already know that about me. I love my Girls. And I'm not sure why. Okay, so maybe I am. Here goes the "my first IG" segment. I was in high school, and my gf at the time, Ruby, way dug the girls. Me = notsomuch. I told her to "turn that crap off". That kills me now. But anyway, I bought Swamp Ophelia first. Then my aunt Laura bought me Rites of Passage. And I loved The Girls. A lot. Forward one year. I'm driving home from work at Gates Rubber Company in Denver when I heard Hammer and a Nail on the radio. I had the CD...loved it, in fact, but never actually listened to it. I finally heard what it was saying. And I was like "OMG. Exactly! Quit talking about how things are awful, and DO something about it". And that was it. I became a bigger freak. :)
Some of their issues I have issues with. But I love them for having their opinions and sticking by them and supporting them. Even at the cost of their own promotion. I love that. You go, Girls.
And that concludes today's addition of "Why I love IG" by Dawn Manuel. Thank you, please drive up to the window.