Dawn's Digression.
Thursday, October 02, 2003
This guy came in my cubicle today and said that I look different. Calm, he says. I don't think that marriage makes me any different. The calm look is probably true, though. That wedding stressed the crap out of me, and I'm glad it's over. Things weren't perfect, but they were. If that makes any sense. Things did not go as planned. And things I hadn't planned worked out just fine. I don't really want to talk about the wedding, to be honest with you. I don't have any pictures back yet, so I'd just have to type it all out again later.
Michele says I've been depressed since the wedding. I don't agree. I'm tired. Very tired. But not in that depressed-I-can-do-no-more-I-give-up way. Just in the way that I want to sleep. For two days straight. Then all will be well. I have been sad, though, because I feel as though I've lost a couple of friends. I wish I could say more about that, but it is really like beating a dead horse. Letting go has always been an issue for me. It's just that -- I feel these individuals are holding me at arm's length, and I fear they won't let me get close again. It just feels different. I hope it's just my perception and that things will return to normal soon. In the meantime, I'm going to work at becoming friends with Patti and Helen. I think I need to. We don't have any couple friends, and we need them.
I thought of a million things to blog while I was gone. For example, it seems like they have signs for everything up there. "Watch for fallen rock" "Moose crossing : 1500 feet" (How does the moose know where to cross?) "Senior Citizen crossing". I was amused. The leaves were absolutely gorgeous. I didn't take a lot of pictures of leaves, because we all know how boring landscape pictures are. But I did take tons of pictures of covered bridges. I'll get them developed eventually and post them here.
One really nice thing: When we got to our room at the Black Bear Inn, we had flowers waiting on us. Laura & Jerry, George & Diane and Michelle & Eric (aunts, uncles, cousin & husband) had sent us flowers. They were absolutely beautiful. I don't even know how to tell you how pretty. Michele and I both got teary-eyed when we saw the card. How sweet could they possibly be? I just love my family. I actually have a digital picture of those, so maybe I'll post one of those flowers tomorrow. We were terribly saddened when we had to throw out the flowers before their time. We would have loved to have brought them home. The good news, though, is that we were able to get the vase home just fine.
Michele says I've been depressed since the wedding. I don't agree. I'm tired. Very tired. But not in that depressed-I-can-do-no-more-I-give-up way. Just in the way that I want to sleep. For two days straight. Then all will be well. I have been sad, though, because I feel as though I've lost a couple of friends. I wish I could say more about that, but it is really like beating a dead horse. Letting go has always been an issue for me. It's just that -- I feel these individuals are holding me at arm's length, and I fear they won't let me get close again. It just feels different. I hope it's just my perception and that things will return to normal soon. In the meantime, I'm going to work at becoming friends with Patti and Helen. I think I need to. We don't have any couple friends, and we need them.
I thought of a million things to blog while I was gone. For example, it seems like they have signs for everything up there. "Watch for fallen rock" "Moose crossing : 1500 feet" (How does the moose know where to cross?) "Senior Citizen crossing". I was amused. The leaves were absolutely gorgeous. I didn't take a lot of pictures of leaves, because we all know how boring landscape pictures are. But I did take tons of pictures of covered bridges. I'll get them developed eventually and post them here.
One really nice thing: When we got to our room at the Black Bear Inn, we had flowers waiting on us. Laura & Jerry, George & Diane and Michelle & Eric (aunts, uncles, cousin & husband) had sent us flowers. They were absolutely beautiful. I don't even know how to tell you how pretty. Michele and I both got teary-eyed when we saw the card. How sweet could they possibly be? I just love my family. I actually have a digital picture of those, so maybe I'll post one of those flowers tomorrow. We were terribly saddened when we had to throw out the flowers before their time. We would have loved to have brought them home. The good news, though, is that we were able to get the vase home just fine.
Dawn, 2:34 PM
