Dawn's Digression.

Do you know "I Don't Know" by Ozzy? I just wrote that title, and it made me think about that song. It's a great song. I once wanted "Goodbye to Romance" played at my funeral. If you know the song, please say so in my Comments.

On a more serious note...
I am sick and tired of being sad. I look like shit on a stick. I've waited a couple of weeks to say something to Michele, and I don't know how much longer I can wait. I think I need something to last me at least through the wedding. I'm so up and down I can barely handle myself. One minute I want to run screaming from Mich, another I want to hang on and never let go. I know the problems are fabricated in my mind, but they won't stop. I don't know what to do because I'm sure you remember what happened in 2001 when I wanted to take something. *shakes head*

I swear I'm not being dramatic this time. I am having serious issues. I've been becoming disoriented. I'm sad. Confused. All of that. And I'm not asking for attention. I haven't told anyone I'm feeling this way up until now. I'm am scared shitless of life. (I know I've said that.) I've been talking to someone close to me...so close I can't stand it, who feels the same way. She said that sometimes she doesn't see the purpose. I'll tell you, I've felt that way SO much of my life...but to have this person say it to me blew me away. How do I deal with it? I honest to God don't know. But what I DO know is that I have to find something to say to her. To make her think it is okay. I did ask her to please go to the doctor. Because I need her. If she doesn't know the meaning or why she is here, how do I?

Disclaimer: It's not Michele.