Dawn's Digression.
Friday, June 13, 2003
I've been meaning to tell you that I've been sleeping like a log for the last couple of weeks. I've been completely exhausted. It may have something to do with the fact that I've been trying to read myself to sleep, but at any rate, I'm grateful.
The windshield in my truck cracked. Now I really feel like I'm driving a hoopty. It sucks because I realize that before I decided I should get married, the windshield would have been inconvenient, but now even that small amount of money is going to screw me up. In a really bad way. So, I'm going to have to drive a vehicle I already drive with shame around town with a cracked windshield. Could I be any more white trash? I suppose I couldn't.
I could not be less excited about the upcoming reception. I was really excited at first, but I feel like I just realized the financial position I've put myself in. My rent is going up because we're getting a house. Our bills will go up. My commute and, therefore, gas will go up, and now I have to pay off a good three thousand dollars in credit card debt on top of the rest of my debt I'll never get paid off? How? How will I do this? I am so screwed. Plus, I feel like a fat cow. I haven't been to the gym in probably almost 2 months. I can't think of anything I want to do less than go to the gym. Okay...remember that root canal? I'd rather go to the gym than do that, but only because the gym is now free for me, and the root canal would cost me money.
Have I mentioned that my eyes have gotten gimpy? My right eye is so horrid, I've had to start wearing my glasses. Minor, I know. But the glasses aren't strong enough anymore. Also, at night, I lay on my side to read. If I close my left eye when I sit up, everything is dark. If I close my right eye, everything is just fine. So, I have a freak out session...and I sit there thinking, "OMG, I'm going blind." for about 5 minutes while I wait for my vision to come back.
The windshield in my truck cracked. Now I really feel like I'm driving a hoopty. It sucks because I realize that before I decided I should get married, the windshield would have been inconvenient, but now even that small amount of money is going to screw me up. In a really bad way. So, I'm going to have to drive a vehicle I already drive with shame around town with a cracked windshield. Could I be any more white trash? I suppose I couldn't.
I could not be less excited about the upcoming reception. I was really excited at first, but I feel like I just realized the financial position I've put myself in. My rent is going up because we're getting a house. Our bills will go up. My commute and, therefore, gas will go up, and now I have to pay off a good three thousand dollars in credit card debt on top of the rest of my debt I'll never get paid off? How? How will I do this? I am so screwed. Plus, I feel like a fat cow. I haven't been to the gym in probably almost 2 months. I can't think of anything I want to do less than go to the gym. Okay...remember that root canal? I'd rather go to the gym than do that, but only because the gym is now free for me, and the root canal would cost me money.
Have I mentioned that my eyes have gotten gimpy? My right eye is so horrid, I've had to start wearing my glasses. Minor, I know. But the glasses aren't strong enough anymore. Also, at night, I lay on my side to read. If I close my left eye when I sit up, everything is dark. If I close my right eye, everything is just fine. So, I have a freak out session...and I sit there thinking, "OMG, I'm going blind." for about 5 minutes while I wait for my vision to come back.
Dawn, 1:55 PM
