Dawn's Digression.

I am so ticked off. I just had this wonderful long blog and my computer crashed. For no apparent reason. And I have no idea what I said. I suppose I shouldn't say it was wonderful. By wonderful, I just meant I had an actual entry, not just three lines like usual lately.

My Avon business has been going better. I actually made money in May, and likely will in June as well. Yay! I should go out and find more customers I know, but I am just not the peddling kind. However, should you find you necessitate any Avon, please feel free to let me know.

This is my second night in a row at home alone. Do you remember when I used to complain about Michele's meetings? Not anymore. I love her to pieces, I think I've just been seeing too much of her. We are both really stressed and have short fuses. We actually do pretty well all things considered. This too shall pass. If we can make it through this very stressful time, I feel we are good to go. This is a hell of a lot of stress. Wedding, reception, buying a house...then with Michele being in the middle of the softball season and getting ready for the World Series next year, it's really just a mess.

I still want some powder blue boots like Amy Ray has in IG's last DVD. I've been looking for the better part of 3 years, and still can't find them. Unfair. Wouldn't I look cute in those? ;)

I know I've mentioned this on numerous occasions, but the concern is actually growing in me. I am terrified of losing my autonomy. I can't tell you the last time I read anything environmental. I'm not even following the Arctic Drilling anymore, if you can believe that. I am just so disgusted with politics. No one seems to care what our grandchildren won't have. We are a very selfish society, myself included. I want one of those Hybrid cars. Half electric, half gas. How cool is that? Fifty-something miles to the gallon. That sounds marvelous. Not to mention less pollution. And they really aren't that expensive. A~, as I as saying... I am completely aware that once we start trying to have kids, my individuality and freedom are all but gone. If I want to finish school, I need to do it now. But right now, I also need a second job. What's more important? I'm thinking the education. Of course. The one that takes more commitment and effort. And also takes longer to see results. I am totally into instant gratification. And lets say I get this degree that will take me yet another seven years....will my pay rate go up enough to pay the student loans? Doubtful. So, now I'm back to wanting to teach. I always come back to that. To me it just seems the most feasible. Plus, I am looking for something where I can spend as much time as possible with the kids. I truly believe it is important to spend a LOT of time with your children. Don't even get me started on that.

The ladies at work have taken to calling my future daughter Little Emily. I love it. (And no, it does not have anything to do with IG, dammit!!) It annoys Michele because she is still stuck on the name Bradley. I like Emily because it is old-fashioned and sweet. I also like Grace. I've given up on Caroline.

Speaking of names, I am planning on changing mine. Most likely before the ceremony. Actually, I will probably do so as soon as we move, so when I change my address on everything I can change my name as well. I absolutely abhor my last name, and don't believe in hyphenation. Besides, I feel like if I'm giving birth, Michele would probably like the kids to have her last name.

I can't remember what else I typed about. :( Maybe I'll remember tomorrow and actually have time at work to sneak in a quick entry. I won't hold my breath!