Dawn's Digression.

I've had a bad couple of days. I've been really down. For no reason. I really hate when that happens. LLCoolMuffin was laughing at me last night because of the way I was lying pathetically on the couch. She asked what my issue was, and the only thing I could say was, "Must be time for my quarterly depression." For some reason this did not encourage a lively jig from her. She was all 'uh oh'. I spent part of the morning sleeping on the couch until the dog barked and woke me up. So I moved to my room. Then I just laid there and stared at the ceiling. And I feel sorry for her having to watch me be like that because I know she doesn't understand it and doesn't know how to help. What a lot of people don't get is that you simply can't help. Give me a few days and I'll snap out of it. Actually today I'm pretty much fine, so the 'quarterly depression' wasn't even that. It was just a bad day. I took a sleeping pill so I would sleep well and wake up in a better mindset, and I think it worked. I wish they had quick-fix Prozac. So then whenever I'm having a bad moment, I take the pill and I feel all better. I don't want to be medicated all the time, but wouldn't it be nice if you could take a pill only when necessary? I think so.

Anyway, I just have no confidence right now. I feel awful about myself. You ever have those moments when everything just seems hopeless and you hate everything about yourself? I think we all do. At least that's what Kidd Kraddick said on the radio this morning. I just feel so incapable. Once again, I know this is fleeting. I'm certain that a day or two from now I will be perfectly fine. I look forward to it. But until then--- Man, I feel like shit. *shrug*