Dawn's Digression.
Friday, March 05, 2004
First things first:
Social Psych. I got a 96 on my test. The class average was 80. :) Also, that paper I wrote? It was worth 20 points. The teacher said, "If you got 18, 19, or 20 on this paper, you did very very well. This was an extremely difficult paper." I got a 20. My average is only a 94, though because I lost five points for going to that Bette Midler concert. Otherwise, I'd have a 97.5. *pout*
I was listening to an IG song this morning (big shock) and I thought of a reader during a song, so I thought I'd share...
Fill It Up Again - Emily
You've been the hole in my sky, my shrinking water supply
Before my well runs dry
I'm going round, round, round the bend
Fill it up again
I gathered up the courage that it took
Made that bed and took one last look
And you could hear the pages flapping in the wind blown
Book of my days
One tank gone second thoughts are on my mind
What's this trip going to cost me this time
The devil I know is starting to look awfully kind
But the new road is an old friend
I fill it up again
Love this. It really spoke to me. In my little pea brain, this song is about leaving a relationship that has become unhealthy for you. The person you are with has siphoned what makes you whole, and has taken more than you have to give. Your effort, your time, your emotions.... you're just not getting what you need to complete you anymore. So, you make the difficult decision to leave and, you know, Fill It Up Again.
It's really a wrenching decision when you finally decide to leave a situation you've been unhappy in. There are always questions of loyalty, if the phase will pass, and what the right thing is to do. Ultimately, the decision has to be what will make you the most compete 'You' you can be. Or at least that is what I believe. And sometimes doing the right thing feels incredibly wrong. Unfortunately, we can't always follow our hearts. I don't know about you, but that was an incredibly painful lesson for me to learn, and one I can't say I've perfected. I rely a lot on my intuition to guide me when I make decisions. This has gotten me in a lot of trouble, and I've made some very interesting decisions because of it. Sometimes you just know that if things don't change drastically, and soon, that you will have to make the change yourself.
Social Psych. I got a 96 on my test. The class average was 80. :) Also, that paper I wrote? It was worth 20 points. The teacher said, "If you got 18, 19, or 20 on this paper, you did very very well. This was an extremely difficult paper." I got a 20. My average is only a 94, though because I lost five points for going to that Bette Midler concert. Otherwise, I'd have a 97.5. *pout*
I was listening to an IG song this morning (big shock) and I thought of a reader during a song, so I thought I'd share...
Fill It Up Again - Emily
You've been the hole in my sky, my shrinking water supply
Before my well runs dry
I'm going round, round, round the bend
Fill it up again
I gathered up the courage that it took
Made that bed and took one last look
And you could hear the pages flapping in the wind blown
Book of my days
One tank gone second thoughts are on my mind
What's this trip going to cost me this time
The devil I know is starting to look awfully kind
But the new road is an old friend
I fill it up again
Love this. It really spoke to me. In my little pea brain, this song is about leaving a relationship that has become unhealthy for you. The person you are with has siphoned what makes you whole, and has taken more than you have to give. Your effort, your time, your emotions.... you're just not getting what you need to complete you anymore. So, you make the difficult decision to leave and, you know, Fill It Up Again.
It's really a wrenching decision when you finally decide to leave a situation you've been unhappy in. There are always questions of loyalty, if the phase will pass, and what the right thing is to do. Ultimately, the decision has to be what will make you the most compete 'You' you can be. Or at least that is what I believe. And sometimes doing the right thing feels incredibly wrong. Unfortunately, we can't always follow our hearts. I don't know about you, but that was an incredibly painful lesson for me to learn, and one I can't say I've perfected. I rely a lot on my intuition to guide me when I make decisions. This has gotten me in a lot of trouble, and I've made some very interesting decisions because of it. Sometimes you just know that if things don't change drastically, and soon, that you will have to make the change yourself.
Dawn, 10:42 AM
