Dawn's Digression.
Thursday, March 04, 2004
All That We Let In
I had a feeling that my post wasn't phrased quite right yesterday.
I agree with you, Gil. Most of my experiences with letting people in have been wonderful. Most. Really my only point, which I did a horrible job of explaining, was that once you let folks in, you invariably get hurt. I can hardly think of a person I care about that hasn't hurt me at some time or another. Never on purpose, though. People you don't care about don't have the leverage to hurt you like those that do.
To not allow others to get close sounds lonely to me. I don't consider that I am a person of high talent or intellect. I think my gift to this world is my relationships with people. I couldn't have those without wearing my heart on my sleeve occasionally. Much of the time I wish I had other gifts like being musically talented, more of an activist, a writer, or desire and will to be more involved in my community. It just isn't in me right now. So, to validate myself, I've decided my gift is friendship. It is fallible, but constant. I'm blessed in that the friends I have are truly friends, and not mere acquaintances.
I am better for even the negative experiences in my life. You know that song by Garth Brooks, "The Dance"? I wouldn't trade much of anything. I would not change any past relationships, for certain. Happiness is happiness even if it doesn't last a lifetime. You still have that moment in time to hang on to and cherish.
I feel certain things are not coming out right again. I did remember my new IG CD cover today which means I can type this to sum it up:
All That We Let In - Emily (excerpt)
Dust in our eyes our own boots kicked up
Heartsick we nursed along the way we picked up
You may not see it when it's sticking to your skin
But we're better off for all that we let in
Lost friends and loved ones much too young
So much promises and work left undone
When all that guards us is a single centerline
And the brutal crossing over when it's time
...And the greatest gift of life is to know love
I agree with you, Gil. Most of my experiences with letting people in have been wonderful. Most. Really my only point, which I did a horrible job of explaining, was that once you let folks in, you invariably get hurt. I can hardly think of a person I care about that hasn't hurt me at some time or another. Never on purpose, though. People you don't care about don't have the leverage to hurt you like those that do.
To not allow others to get close sounds lonely to me. I don't consider that I am a person of high talent or intellect. I think my gift to this world is my relationships with people. I couldn't have those without wearing my heart on my sleeve occasionally. Much of the time I wish I had other gifts like being musically talented, more of an activist, a writer, or desire and will to be more involved in my community. It just isn't in me right now. So, to validate myself, I've decided my gift is friendship. It is fallible, but constant. I'm blessed in that the friends I have are truly friends, and not mere acquaintances.
I am better for even the negative experiences in my life. You know that song by Garth Brooks, "The Dance"? I wouldn't trade much of anything. I would not change any past relationships, for certain. Happiness is happiness even if it doesn't last a lifetime. You still have that moment in time to hang on to and cherish.
I feel certain things are not coming out right again. I did remember my new IG CD cover today which means I can type this to sum it up:
All That We Let In - Emily (excerpt)
Dust in our eyes our own boots kicked up
Heartsick we nursed along the way we picked up
You may not see it when it's sticking to your skin
But we're better off for all that we let in
Lost friends and loved ones much too young
So much promises and work left undone
When all that guards us is a single centerline
And the brutal crossing over when it's time
...And the greatest gift of life is to know love
Dawn, 10:56 AM
