Dawn's Digression.
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
I took Middlesex and The Exorcist to Half Price Books. I got $10 for both, which I suppose isn't all that awful since I paid $6 for them. I actually made money on the deal! Middlesex remained interesting through the last tape or so, but once again, I just wanted the reader to shut up on occasion.
The inlaws weren't quite as awful as I had them billed to be. I figured it would go like that. They didn't address me, and didn't ignore me, either, so it was okay. I do think it is sucky to have to stay in a hotel on Christmas night, though. They should have at least offered to let us throw sleeping bags in the floor of one of their FOUR bedrooms, but whatever, I guess. We wouldn't have stayed there anyway, but they could have offered. You'd think. My parents always offer to let us stay, even if we have to sleep on the couch or trampoline.
Michele and I got a week of timeshare from my parents. Yippee! Michele didn't understand that it is ANYwhere in the world. We can go to New Zealand, Germany, or Alaska if we want. The point of asking for the timeshare was to have a very very cheap vacation, but since she found out we can go anywhere, she wants to go somewhere exciting. *sigh* So much for an almost free vacation, hunh? At any rate, I very much look forward to enjoying it.
I think for New Year's we are going to hang out with Patti & Helen. We really wanted to stay home, but Patti & Helen want to hang out, and I think it would be good for us to spend time with them. We haven't seen them since the reception.
I called to make an appointment with a psychiatrist, but he was no longer taking new patients. I have a call in to another office. I'm going to call a bunch of them and see who can see me first. I want drugs STAT. I give in. I finally agree with the therapist and my PCP and most of my friends. If I can take a frickin' happy pill, screw my thoughts I should be able to control this stuff myself. I've been trying, and I've made a huge mess of myself. My emotions are completely out of control right now. I've been crying more than usual, and I've been sadder than usual. I can hardly get myself to 'front' for people. I told Michele I wanted to stay home for New Year's because I didn't feel like having to front. She asked why I had to front. I just do. That's all I could say. And, that, my friend is why I have to get drugs STAT. My anger is out of control. I snap for little to no reason at anyone or anything.
I think I'm going to go look at timeshare locations now and see what I can daydream about.
The inlaws weren't quite as awful as I had them billed to be. I figured it would go like that. They didn't address me, and didn't ignore me, either, so it was okay. I do think it is sucky to have to stay in a hotel on Christmas night, though. They should have at least offered to let us throw sleeping bags in the floor of one of their FOUR bedrooms, but whatever, I guess. We wouldn't have stayed there anyway, but they could have offered. You'd think. My parents always offer to let us stay, even if we have to sleep on the couch or trampoline.
Michele and I got a week of timeshare from my parents. Yippee! Michele didn't understand that it is ANYwhere in the world. We can go to New Zealand, Germany, or Alaska if we want. The point of asking for the timeshare was to have a very very cheap vacation, but since she found out we can go anywhere, she wants to go somewhere exciting. *sigh* So much for an almost free vacation, hunh? At any rate, I very much look forward to enjoying it.
I think for New Year's we are going to hang out with Patti & Helen. We really wanted to stay home, but Patti & Helen want to hang out, and I think it would be good for us to spend time with them. We haven't seen them since the reception.
I called to make an appointment with a psychiatrist, but he was no longer taking new patients. I have a call in to another office. I'm going to call a bunch of them and see who can see me first. I want drugs STAT. I give in. I finally agree with the therapist and my PCP and most of my friends. If I can take a frickin' happy pill, screw my thoughts I should be able to control this stuff myself. I've been trying, and I've made a huge mess of myself. My emotions are completely out of control right now. I've been crying more than usual, and I've been sadder than usual. I can hardly get myself to 'front' for people. I told Michele I wanted to stay home for New Year's because I didn't feel like having to front. She asked why I had to front. I just do. That's all I could say. And, that, my friend is why I have to get drugs STAT. My anger is out of control. I snap for little to no reason at anyone or anything.
I think I'm going to go look at timeshare locations now and see what I can daydream about.
Dawn, 2:23 PM
